Arghh!!! Yes, you're being ridiculous...most guys have this same pattern, so please stop obsessing about it. Just avoid mirrors for another couple of weeks at least. You've got to get the preconceived notion of what your beard is suppose to look like out of your head. If everyone had that notion nobody would ever grow a beard!

Patience shall be rewarded!

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Do you believe in these Common Beard Myths?