WEEK 14 / UPDATE

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This was not a good beard week. Suddenly all things that were obstacles before week 13 they joined: the notion that is not growing, the return to a period of disarray, the doubt of whether I can achieve my dream beard, and the obsession by my  weaknesses, in my case: the difference between my two cheeks. 

I know many guys here usually make comparisons of their beards with the beards of others, and those comparisons are not always beneficial, because of there born the frustration, discontent and discouragement.  

In my case, my worst enemy is myself, because I do not have to go far to make these kind of comparisons. Just I have to see my right cheek, which I love, that's all I want of a beard, to make me feel bad about how my left beard grows. 

This week, amid the discomfort that was experiencing, I decided to do something that I knew was going to do before: shave my head. But when I was doing, I was about to cut my beard. Not completely, of course, I had the desire (already mentioned above) to balance the color of my two cheeks, cutting some of my right cheek, for put off some of the density that make the difference between both.  

But I stopped. And I asked myself why I wanted to do something like that. And the answer was one: I do not like the beard looks. It was a issue of appearance. And result that this trip is not just about appearance. It is also about acceptance and self-knowledge. Here it is says "embrace your beard". And then, at that moment, I embraced my own beard. 

And then I could see what before not saw: yes, it continues to grow; my mustache has a natural wave that makes it almost a handlebar; and I have a goatee so long and so thick, that is already changing the way of my chin, therefore of my face. Somehow I start to be other. And I like that. I was cut because I love change and I realized that there was already a change. 

And so, by way of the inward, I turned outward, and I realized that I not only have a beard but a style of beard. My own beard style. 

A hug and greetings to all.

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