rkal:   First off, when I clicked your link to your photo.  My jaw dropped a little and I slapped the side of my face.  image  Something is wrong?  or the matter?

In all due respects, I love what you have.   It is so unique and has a quality unto itself.  It's quite magnificent in my humble opinion, but I know:  beard owners can be their very own worst critics.

Some of the gents on here have given their thoughts on your situation.  

The only thing I can provide is moral support, in that I truly think what you have is pretty damn nice.

I hope the suggestions that the men have provided here will give you some comfort and that you'll adjust to any changes you have to make.   I hope you will allow it to grow out and see if this will give you the desired results.

All the best to you rkalimage